Go With What You Know

Remember way back on December 31st when everyone was ringing in the New Year?

Everyone was all like: 2020 vision and new decade-ish and sending out the old and bringing in the new.

Excitement was high.

I admit, I didn’t feel a lot of excitement. I really felt kinda hopeless.

*sigh*

2019 was HARD.

Sometimes if I would have allowed myself to verbalize my inner feelings, I would have said it was brutal. But that’s not nice of me to say, because it wasn’t, I guess…I was probably just tired. Right?

There is always something to be thankful for, so I don’t like to acknowledge difficult times. Because things could always be worse, so why feel despair?

I try really hard to flip the script and look on the sunny side of the street, you know over there where the grass is ALWAYS greener.

I remember one day, I gave into my feelings of hopelessness and helplessness, and those feelings ran down my cheeks and dripped into a whole roll of toilet paper (relatively speaking). For me it isn’t good to lean into negativity.

And so I sputtered and fumed and made myself get a grip.

Because sometimes you have to go with what you know.

And this is what I know:

1. As long as you are upright and breathing, there is hope and you have purpose.
2. You can control your choices. Make the next best choice.
3. You will feel a sense of accomplishment if you take positive action.
4. Laughing helps.
5. So does making a list of things you’re grateful for.

So here we are daaaayyys into 2020 and back there in the trenches of 2019 when I thought we couldn’t go on…well we did.

Sometimes you have to go with what you know.

Have you ever felt that way?

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