Remember way back on December 31st when everyone was ringing in the New Year?
Everyone was all like: 2020 vision and new decade-ish and sending out the old and bringing in the new.
Excitement was high.
I admit, I didn’t feel a lot of excitement. I really felt kinda hopeless.
2019 was HARD.
Sometimes if I would have allowed myself to verbalize my inner feelings, I would have said it was brutal. But that’s not nice of me to say, because it wasn’t, I guess…I was probably just tired. Right?
There is always something to be thankful for, so I don’t like to acknowledge difficult times. Because things could always be worse, so why feel despair?
I try really hard to flip the script and look on the sunny side of the street, you know over there where the grass is ALWAYS greener.
I remember one day, I gave into my feelings of hopelessness and helplessness, and those feelings ran down my cheeks and dripped into a whole roll of toilet paper (relatively speaking). For me it isn’t good to lean into negativity.
And so I sputtered and fumed and made myself get a grip.
Because sometimes you have to go with what you know.
And this is what I know:
- As long as you are upright and breathing, there is hope and you have purpose.
- You can control your choices. Make the next best choice.
- You will feel a sense of accomplishment if you take positive action.
- Laughing helps.
- So does making a list of things you’re grateful for.
So here we are daaaayyys into 2020 and back there in the trenches of 2019 when I thought we couldn’t go on…well we did.
Sometimes you have to go with what you know.
Have you ever felt that way?